Friday, August 15, 2008

for whom the bell tolls

the wedding bell, that is. so my dad told me yesterday that he asked his girlfriend to marry him. i'm so happy for him; the woman he's been dating for a while now is really nice, has a wonderful family, and so far seems to think the world of him. she also seems to be a strong catholic, which is nice, as my dad is too.

it wasn't until several hours after i got off the phone with my dad that some sadness started to kick in. it's all totally irrational, and i'm fine today, but... i was a little teary for a while. my dad's girlfriend will probably move in with him in the house i grew up in once they're married. i started to wonder... will my room still be my room? can i still go home whenever i want? can i still show up for dinner whenever i want? i'm sure things will be fine, but this has been a lot to think about.

my brother is married. many of my close friends are married. (some even have a kid or two). and now my dad will be, too. it makes me feel even less anchored... like so many people around me are anchored in some way, and i'm not. still living in my apartment, still single, and as of lately, thinking a lot about a career change.

but, i'm cool... i'm ok. i know what god has in store for me, sooner or later. and i have him. it's hard, and a little lonely, but exciting too. it's exciting to know that god's working in me right now, and that so many awesome things are still ahead of me.

7 comments:

The Learner said...

Is it your recent trip to New Orleans that has you considering the career change?

SavvyD said...

Yeah, that like soooo weird! Your dad is getting married a second time before you get married for the first time.

I think I might end up being the last single cousin. I got to sleep on the couch when we all stayed together in the same house. :(

Amir Larijani said...

Hang in there, S/C. I've been looking out for ya. Any tall Christian dudes who come to my blog, I'll send 'em your way. ;)

single/certain said...

awwww... thanks amir! :)

single/certain said...

learner: yes, yes it is :) i will say more soon....

exchurchmouse said...

Congratulations to your father and his girlfriend! I am sorry that this transition is difficult for you.

I don't know if it helps, but I have learned to make sure that I hang out with people vary in their age, gender and marital status. The diversity within my social stratosphere has helped me tremendously and it has opened my mind a lot.

MarkyMark said...

Another one (your dad) bites the dust...